Paraphrase: (12/17/00)
19 It is not your place to take revenge, rather, it is in the province of God's wrath to repay wrongs as He will. 20 For your part, provide for your enemy. Give him food and drink according to his need. 21 Don't allow another's evil to steer your course, but rather let God's goodness work through you to steer theirs.
Key Verse: (12/17/00)
12:21 - The goodness of God within us ought to shape the course of the evil surrounding us, and not the opposite.
New Thoughts (12/18/00)
I am so thankful that my Lord is more merciful than I. Where I would seek only revenge, He chooses to seek reconciliation. Where actions only provoke me to anger, they provoke Him to compassionate efforts. Lord, will I ever get beyond this? By Your grace, I know I will, but I grow weary of the waiting. I grow weary of being so offended by myself, of falling so far short of Your desire. And yet…
You have shown me places where You have brought change, not through any action of mine, but seemingly just by my bringing You into the situation within me. You have shown me a little of how to submit to Your will, even when Your will is for me to do nothing. You are teaching me how to stay within Your command, rather than trying to outdo Your desire. It's hard, my Lord, it's hard. So many things, I simply don't want to do. So many things that I oughtn't do are strongly desired. I am very much the bull in harness, needing that goad to keep me moving in the proper direction.
The lesson of these verses is indeed to submit to Your will and authority, to cooperate with Your plans and intentions. Oh, when I've been hurt, how hard it is to refrain from cursing! When I'm merely frustrated, how hard it is to refrain from anger! And yet, You speak "this is My desire." When You desire to bring repentance and reconciliation, help me, oh Lord, not to work for condemnation. You have commanded us to seek always to be a cause for peace, not strife. Father, with all that is within me, I offer up my vengefulness, and submit myself to Your far better will. Help me, Lord, to refrain from striking out in my hurt. Help me, Lord, to be merciful and understanding when those around me are in the same struggles, for condemnation is all the stronger when it faces its own weaknesses in another.