New Thoughts
I'd not thought before of our lost view of man and God. This is something that I need to chew on. And the reminder that the law is fully in force still is timely, as well. To love as Jesus loved: it's a tall order. Yet, He is both the one who showed us that it's possible and the One who empowers us to do so. Oh, Lord, Jesus, I pray that You would so empower me. I pray that You would teach me to recognize in Your life and Your Word how love is truly to operate. So often I feel unloving, and often I am. But I know also that love is not always what the emotions expect it to be, but sometimes is present in toughness. God, I beg You, show me where that toughness is love, and where it's misplaced self-preservation. I've learned all too well how to protect myself from hurts by turning inward. Teach me how to share myself instead, to expose myself to those I would love, to weather the hurts that seem guaranteed to come of such loving. Lord, You weathered far worse - giving Your love into lives that wanted nothing to do with You. You continue to lovingly put up with this family of Yours that so often cannot figure out how to respond properly to the love You give. Teach me, Oh God, to be thick-skinned enough to weather the mistaken responses of those I love and yet thin-skinned enough to love fully. I don't understand how this can be, but I know by faith and by Your example that it can; and I want to find that love in me. I want that sureness, that confidence, that knowing that my love for You is real, and not just the misleading of a wicked heart. Do what You must, Lord. I've said it before, and I've felt it hurt when You answered. But I've also seen what that hurt brings, and recognized it (eventually) as Your love doing what's needful once more. So - with no misconceptions about what I'm asking - I come to You once again and say 'do what You must, Lord. I am willing.'