New Thoughts
Grace, mercy, and peace. What a beautiful trinity of blessings! And they will abide. It's not a question. God's grace will always come to remove our guilt - His unwarranted favor shown to us who have done nothing to deserve it. God's mercy will always be here to relieve our pain and shame, to comfort us as we repent and recover. God's peace will always be there waiting for us to cast our cares upon Him again, give thanks for His grace and mercy upon us, and return to it. God, You're awesome. I think not of Your great power and might at this point, but the sheer generosity of Your spirit. That You would reach out in such ways to such as I. That You would call out to me, who wanted nothing to do with You. That You, who are all, and in all, and created all, would stoop down to prove yourself to my meager doubting mind - offer such proof as I deemed necessary; and that without the snide amusement I might show in similar situations. I am blessed simply to know You, Lord. To know You as Father, as my father, is enough almost to unbalance me! To realize who You are, how You are, and yet realize at the same time that You have desired us to be family. And even now, I don't appreciate it as I should, do I? I'm still all too ready to set You aside for later. God help me. Indeed, bind me together, Lord. Help my love to come to that point of being true - of being at its base what it appears to be on the surface, oh God. Go deep, Lord. Rip up and replace those broken connections in me, that I might love You as I should, and so love me as I should, and so my family. God, my love is a broken thing. Would You fix it? Would You do what only You can do, and bring the change and the healing and the humbling that are necessary that this heart of mine might be a heart of Yours? I fall upon Your grace and mercy even now, and I thank You that You are willing that I might become more like You intended. I lay hold of the peace You provide in the confident assurance that You hear me, and are pleased to answer. Help me to be pleased with the answer as it comes. Thank You, again.