New Thoughts (2/13/01-2/14/01)
We, as Paul, were called before our birth (Eph 1:4 - He chose us before the foundation of the world.) That call came with a goal of being holy and blameless (same verse), with directions to be radically separated, "from other men and other objects and pursuits, and consecrated to the service of God." And it came with a purpose; to have a great impact on our society as we glorify Jesus by declaring His gospel to the world, bringing them to faith and the obedience which cannot be separated from that faith. Israel had been strategically placed by God, to occupy a land at the crossroads of civilization. Thus, they were positioned to have such a great impact on the nations. The coming of our Lord, the beginning of His gospel had been strategically placed by God, to occupy a time when the political climate and the linguistic currency were perfectly adapted to the spreading of that gospel, allowing a small team of 120 men to so impact their society that within a few centuries the gospel they preached was the dominant belief system among the nations of the Roman empire. The Church today is equally placed in its time and situation by that same God. And it is He who has chosen the location in which He intends for us to have such an impact. Have we accepted His call? Have I? Lord, I know beyond doubting that I fail of that call on a regular basis. I know that I have been shy in declaring Your greatness among the nations. Yet, I have seen You working change in me, in those around me. I have seen Your hand working on my coworkers, almost in spite of my silence. To me, Your awesome ways are all the more impressive as I consider what You've been doing. Yet I hunger to be more fully submerged in Your will, even as I hungered for that submission when first I began this study. I've grown, I've learned to hear Your leading a little better over the course of time, but there remains so far to go. I thank You that You have been teaching me to allow "the yoke of obedience" to direct the freedom You have given me in justification, as Matthew Henry noted. I thank You that You have gifted me with the peace that comes only by Your merit, by Your provision, by Your renouncing of Your earthly rights. I thank You that with that peace, as I have slowly been learning obedience, Your grace has also abounded towards me. I thank You that You have combined those blessings in my life, even as Paul prays here, for Calvin speaks truth when he points out that prosperous peace is but a curse unless Your grace be part and parcel of that peace. May that very grace and peace lead into the harmony and unity You desire among Your children, may it lead into a greater boldness to proclaim Your goodness to the world around me.
Now, I know You have lit a fire in me to reach a deeper degree of understanding with regard to that grace and peace which You bestow upon Your chosen ones. I pray even now, that as the coming studies unfold, that deeper truth will be made clear to me, that You will enlighten my understanding in the way that You intend, and that You will make that understanding more than simple head knowledge, but allow it to have its fullest impact on my being and my nature.
Before I depart this prayer, Lord, I just want to add a note of rejoicing. For by Your grace, You have caused this stiff-necked and proud man to reach a new place. By the testimony of my coworkers, You have caused me to see what You have worked in me over the last few months. You have brought to my recognition the way my nature came across - an unapproachable fortress of pridefulness. Through so many avenues, throughout the study of this book, You have brought home the weight of that sin. Through so many avenues, You have brought cracks into the walls of that fortress I'd erected to 'protect' myself. The walls may not be down yet, but the forces of light have won through, and the collapse cannot but come. And so, through the testimony of my coworkers, I hear that Your nature is beginning to be more visible in me, as You teach me to temper my ways with compassion, as You teach me to show mercy in my strength, even as You have done with me. May Your praise be glorious, oh Lord!