New Thoughts (5/3/01)
Everything points to this one issue that we have with ourselves. It seems that no matter how far we have progressed in this Christian walk, there ever come the times when we find ourselves somehow thinking of God as untrue. We don't like to see that it's ourselves who have been wrong. We want to blame it on Him. 'You said You'd keep me from this. You said I would be changed
' How easily we slip into the dangerous place of blaming God for our decisions. We want the free will, but we don't want the responsibility that comes with it. We want God to be sovereign over our mistakes, but we'd like to take credit for the few things we might get right! What does it take for us to realize that the best of our righteousness is as filthy rags? That there indeed is not a shred of righteousness within us? What does it take to drive us to our knees in humility before our God? Ps 116:11 answers this for us, although we don't want to hear the answer: It's the alarm that comes to us in times of affliction that finally and firmly clarifies for us the basic truth: God is true, men lie. We lie. To others, and to ourselves, and to our God. It's so natural to us, that we often don't even notice when we're doing it! The house of cards has to be knocked down, before we can recognize the truth of God. Oh, how we love to blame Him for our failures. Oh, how the blame is given Him when our lives turn sour! I know, I do it all too often. When the hard times come, it's so easy to look heavenward and complain, to look to God and say 'what has this to do with Your goodness and mercy?' If we can't blame Him, we'll blame the Devil, thinking that's somehow more righteous. Yet we know that even Satan's actions in our life are only by God's permission, and only (if we could but see it) for the purpose of bringing about good in us. Instead, we try to make the same claim for our own actions - that no matter how vile they may appear, the intent was good. What tripe! As Barnes pointed out, there is no pretense possible which can justify an evil act. No matter what good we rationalize out of it, no matter what noble purpose we may claim for it, it remains evil, and it remains a compromise of our integrity and honor [and so gives cause for the blaspheming of God's holy name.] And this simply accords with the message of Scripture: 2Co 6:4 indicates that we are to demonstrate by all our actions that we are servants of God, the moreso in afflictions. Shall we show ourselves the servants of the God of righteousness by unrighteous actions? It cannot be! Lies cannot demonstrate a love for truth. Evil cannot produce anything but evil.
Whenever we come to question God's righteousness because of our situation, we must know, must firmly believe as the primary foundation of reality and order, that God is true. His righteousness will stand. If it seems to fail, we must, must, MUST look to ourselves. If He appears unrighteous to us, we can be assured that our understanding of righteousness has been compromised by our own lies. The heart is deceitful beyond our knowing, our lies to ourselves are the most insidious, because we are left without means of detecting them. But God
Thanks be to God that He in His mercy has sent the Holy Spirit to abide in us, for by Him alone can the foolish talk of our hearts be shown to be foolishness. It's going to hurt, when the truth comes out, because we like to hold ourselves in higher opinion than we ought. But it remains a greater good to know the truth, and so be set free from the lies we are caught up in. Whatever the cost to ourselves, we simply MUST recognize that God is righteous and true. If that righteousness which is the Holy One fails, then all has failed.
Does it seem like His promises have become void in my life? I know I've felt that way many times recently. I see my wife's health in serious decline. I see my daughter in serious rebellion. I see dissatisfaction within myself for everything and anything. All seems to be impossible before me. It's time for me to check my heart, as Mr. Clarke has noted. Something's gone wrong, that is certain. But that it's not God that's gone wrong is equally certain. Today has been declared a national day of prayer, and for a change I'm actually going to participate actively. Today, Father, I pray that You would keep me mindful of this need to check myself. I pray that as we come together as a people of prayer, You would reveal the ways in which my heart has betrayed me. I pray that as we will doubtless come to You on behalf of our nation, we would come with that same humility: seeking to know what has gone wrong in the heart of this nation, seeking to understand Your prescription for its cure. Reveal to this nation, oh God, the lies that have deceived its youth and its leaders. Reveal to this nation, oh God, the foolishness that has been declared to us as wisdom. Remind us, oh sovereign Lord, that You and You alone hold the keys of authority over every nation of this earth, and let us submit ourselves fully to Your leadership. Reveal to me, my King, the things that are causing displeasure to You. I know I fail most miserably of Your standards. And yet, I am too willing to excuse myself for my actions. I pray You, remove the excuses, and let true repentance come. Father, I ought to be prostrate before You in tears, but this back seems so stiff. Bend me to Your truth, my God. Cleanse me from my unrighteousness that I may stand before You whiter than snow.