New Thoughts (10/2/01-10/8/01)
What an overwhelming relief to realize that we're not the only ones who have struggled with the imperfections we still find in ourselves after salvation! Not at all! It seems that if any have ever escaped this struggle, it is only by deluding themselves. It seems as though God's not overly interested in the flesh. Even with His help, it is the spirit, the will, that is strengthened. The flesh remains its old self, and seems ever to be fighting our will, ever seeking to be allowed its old sinful habits. Here, Mr. Clarke of the perfection camp appears to get a little lost. In his argument for present perfection, he first declares that the will is free, and that for the will to be free, it must be free to choose either good or evil. He then tells us that the will cannot command apart from divine grace. How then is it free? The freedom Mr. Clarke claims for the will seems to extend only to desire, not to action. Some freedom that. I could almost agree with his statement that the will cannot command without divine grace, except that the will was already in command when we were sinners. The will had no qualms with the sinful actions we pursued, but heartily commended and commanded those pursuits. It could not do otherwise, for it knew no other course of action. By divine aid, our will is now able to choose the good, to reject the sinful actions we once ran after. This is exactly what Paul has been showing us here. It is indeed well with us. Even though the will of our soul has not yet become the whole of our being, even though the flesh is still rebellious and defiled, it is well with us. Salvation is of the soul. Those who still have flesh may have good within themselves, in their soul, but the flesh itself remains incapable of good. Were it otherwise, the redeemed would not need to lose this mortal flesh. The flesh remains corruptible, and corrupted. In such a state, how could it take on immortality?
But there is a danger in this comprehension, a danger so great that it has caused some to think the whole matter a sinful lie. It is this same danger that causes good men to denounce the fact of permanent salvation, not recognizing that in that denunciation, they have returned to a covenant of works, to futility and hopelessness. The danger that these well-meaning shepherds see is that seeming excuse that the sinner is given not to change. It is the same danger in both cases, but the question is worded a little differently. In the present case, the question that arises is, "if it's not me doing it any more, then why should I worry about it?" The question in the other case is, "if my salvation's certain anyway, and I know God will forgive me, why should I worry about stopping my sinful ways?" That question, Paul already addressed a number of times in this letter. It is not the case for Christians, that they can set aside their responsibility. Even though it is the sinful nature within us that causes us to sin, and is no longer the desire of our will, yet the acts that come of that sinful nature remain our own, even though they are now like the acts of a slave. We no longer agree with those actions, yet they remain ours. The responsibility remains ours. This is the almost daily agony of the believer. This is the agony that caused even Paul to cry out. Although our will has been redeemed, although we struggle with all that we can muster up to refrain from sin, although every fiber of our being, of our soul, our desire, our will, is bent on pursuing that righteousness which the Law and Christ still demand, yet we find ourselves betrayed by ourselves. We find our will captive in the camp of our corrupt body. This is reality. And the responsibility remains upon us for the actions of that body. The curse of the Law has been broken for us. Christ Jesus has already paid the penalty that is due for those actions we will take even today. The repercussions are still ours to face. The repentance is still ours to make. That we feel ourselves captives of our own flesh, as much anguish as it may cause us, ought also to give us confidence. If the fleshly actions that captivate us were of our own choosing, we would not feel ourselves to be captives. That very feeling is a great confirmation of the renewed spirit within us.
Two questions loom large in my mind coming through these commentaries. Mr. Clarke, representing the perfection in our lifetime camp, declares that we can attribute this whole passage to the unregenerate sinner, who is just beginning to come under conviction. As proof, he puts forth the case of the Pharisees who, he says, clearly delighted in the Law. But did they? They certainly pursued a law, but Jesus' big complaint against them was that the law they followed was their own creation, and no longer the true Law of God. They had failed of comprehending the full impact of God's requirements, and had instead created a framework of achievable goals. Did they delight in the Law? No, I think they rather delighted in their own achievements. How could one be delighted in that which gave nothing but condemnation, that showed up all his faults, and provided for no cure? I find I must agree that the heart that delights in the Law must either miscomprehend it sufficiently to make that delight meaningless, or else he must know the Savior who took on our condemnation that we might live to righteousness. From the other camp, those who believe perfection will not come while flesh persists, I find the question as to how God and sin can co-exist, can cohabitate? God, we are told, cannot abide sin. He cannot so much as look at it. So, how is it that He can come dwell in us, who are so far from perfection? To this, I cannot claim to have a full answer. However, I see that God, in Christ, came and dwelt amongst sinful man. I see that His eyes are upon His people at all times, seeing them at their worst as well as at their best. I see that He declares He will not contend with us always. It was to prevent us from an eternity of sinfulness that He wisely limited our days. It was to allow us an eternity that He provided for our salvation. Can the Holy Spirit, then, coexist with our natural sinfulness? It seems apparent that in some degree, He can. How else, the change in us that was necessary before ever we could choose Christ? How else anything but an instant perfection at the very moment of conversion? And that seems to be pretty obviously not the case. If perfection is not instantaneous, it must be progressive. And, if it is progressive, then there must be at least some period during which the Holy Spirit coexists with our sinful nature. If, as Paul declares here, that nature is in the flesh, is it any surprise that the flesh must die? Is it any surprise that so long as the flesh persists, so does sin? If perfection could be completed in this lifetime, there would no longer be a need for death. Death is the punishment of sin. Where sin had been fully eradicated, there would no longer be a call for death. But, we are told that it is appointed to every man once to die. That death comes to the flesh, to the sin nature. In the unredeemed, where the will is still in full accord with the acts of the flesh, there remains a further sentence. In the redeemed, that further sentence has been pardoned, the will has been renewed, the soul no longer cavorts with the flesh, and with the departure of the flesh to its death sentence, is left free of the stains of sin and guilt, just as He promised! He is indeed perfect in wisdom! His ways are excellent, and wonderful beyond our ability to fully comprehend. Yet, I will praise Him, also, for giving us a mind able to understand to the degree He reveals Himself. Thank You, Lord God, for the wonder of Your creation, of Your salvation, of this present life, and the life to come! Indeed, I delight in all Your ways.
That said, knowing that the time of our perfection will come, there remains the dilemma of this present life. The most righteous of us cannot possibly look at himself in honesty, and find himself blameless. Our works remain flawed at best, because our flesh remains and will not be fully subdued. Yet we endeavor to the utmost of our ability to do what God would have us to do. It is indeed humbling to know we have done all we could, and yet have fallen so far short of what we ought. It is only due to Christ's atoning work that our works are acceptable at all. Just as He perfects us, He perfects our prayers and our works, making them holy and acceptable in the sight of God. If we think we are doing well, we have fooled ourselves, we are ignoring the evidence before our eyes, refusing to see the sins we are still committing. John tells us that anybody who declares himself free of all sin is a liar, and in his words declares God to also be a liar. God declares that there is none who is good. There isn't. Not a one. But, there are many who are forgiven, who hunger for the time when that will no longer be so. Were we left with nothing but the misery of this present condition, longing after goodness, but surrounded by misery and failure, we should despair of all hope. But God does not leave us hopeless! He has promised, and that upon His own Holy Name, that His grace will suffice, that there will come a time when all sin has been done away with, when we will dwell with Him in eternity, freed from the pains and woes of this life. This is the rock upon which we stand, the promise for which Christ came and died, the promise of which the present aid of the Holy Spirit within us is a foretaste. And in that foretaste of the promise is our redemption. It is the indwelling presence of the Holy Spirit that renews us day to day. It is not some strengthened will finally overcoming the flesh, no. It is the very power of God brought to bear within us, purifying us bit by bit, day by day, until Perfection Himself shall come. God has done what no other could. He has saved us from our selves. He has brought freedom to souls held captive, in spite of the flesh that remains, He has brought forth victory! The fullness of that victory, regeneration will come for us, but not in this life. The desire will be with us throughout our days, we will struggle to reach that goal of perfection so long as life persists. Some days, we may struggle more than others, but the desire cannot be taken away. God's works do not change. They stand forever. Salvation is the work of God, not man. It, too, will stand forever. As He has worked that wonderful change in my heart, that very heart that could not love Him before, cannot help but love Him now. I will indeed strive after holiness all the days of my life. The impossibility of the goal is no discouragement to the one in love with the goal! Though my failures daily pain me, yet I will seek to please my Beloved. And I know He is pleased with my efforts. I know He dusts of the grime that inevitably attaches to the best of my works, I know He polishes away the imperfections of my offerings, so that they become works of perfect beauty in His sight.
In the end, it seems to me that those who seek to argue that Paul is not speaking of his own case in this section of the letter seek a way to not look at themselves. After all, if Christians don't experience this painful dilemma, and I know I'm a Christian, then why need I look to see if this issue exists in me? I must be alright. It smacks of the same problem the Pharisees suffered from, that of judging by the wrong measure. By their own estimates they were fine, but in God's eyes, they had still failed miserably. I rather like the test that the JFB Commentary offered: consider whether you have loved God perfectly at all times. I don't think there's a one among us that would claim to pass that test. We are all still desperately in need of His forgiveness, of His mercy. Indeed, we cannot but cry with Paul, if once more we recognize that pride that is still within us. We cannot but rejoice with Paul, if once more we recognize His wonderful work on our behalf! We cannot but shout out in excitement to know that He has provided all. He has provided for our past. He has provided for our future. He has provided for our present, washing us once more today from the mire we've attracted to ourselves. He has provided for our present, rephrasing the prayers we have offered too hastily, too thoughtlessly, and making of them holy and acceptable offerings to the Father. He has provided for our present, fixing the errors in our efforts to do good, so that the good that we will is indeed known in God's eyes in spite of the flesh that won't. He has provided for our present, even mediating our praise, that so often fails of its true mark. Our praises, which are too often shaped to the pleasing of our flesh, He transforms, even as He has transformed our soul, our mind. While I fear to offer less than my best, I will not fear to offer that imperfectly, which I long to give in perfection. There will be a time for that. And until that time comes, there will be One in heaven who knows my heart, for He it is who transformed it, who knows my desires, for He has washed away the corruption that made them so vile before. How shall I not praise Him, knowing that He takes me as I am, that He makes me more than I am, that He loves me enough to correct each mistake, to forgive every failure, to love me through my darkest night? How shall I not rejoice to know I serve my Savior, He who has wrought for me a salvation unshakable? Oh God, my God, how I long for that perfection that will come when we meet for an eternal conversation! How it pains me that I cannot serve You as I would even now. And what could I possibly say that would make right the times that I have not in all honesty desired to be that servant in Your house? Forgive me, Father. There can be no excuse. There is nothing I can say that would make it right. There is nothing I could do that would remove the offense. But there is Jesus! Oh, my precious Jesus! What I could not do, my sweet older Brother has done. He has spoken to You on my behalf. He has righted the wrongs I have done to Your name. He continues to look after me. Even now, even with this, I know He is making right the words of my heart, making this simple prayer a thing of beauty before You. Lord, I love You. However imperfectly I may show it, yet I know it's true. And I will praise You as best I can, for I know You love me with an everlasting love, a love that will not fail, for You are eternal, You are my unchanging Father, who has known me since before I was knit in the womb of my mother, who has loved me just as long, and who will love me longer still. May all creation rejoice to know You as its Maker! May it come soon, oh my God, that all the nations will know that You and You alone are God!