New Thoughts
How did John pack so much into such a short space? I feel as though I understand that 'no teachers' part better now. More like, we don't need teachers that are going to try and teach us things that God Himself doesn't teach. We can always stand to have things reinforced by repetition and exposition on God's themes. But if it collides with what the Spirit says - what the Word reveals - then it needs to be discarded. And the endpoint of this section: whether test or badge, it remains painful, doesn't it? God, it's so hard to be as You would have us be. Of course, it's impossible at it's core, but for You. Still, I long to see more of Your righteousness in my life, more of Your love evident in my dealings with those around me. Do I long to see Your glory? Yes. No. I want all that You have for me. I want to want no more than that. You've shown me Your salvation, Your Son. I've seen such of Your glory as You've found me able to comprehend. You've taught me well, and equipped me well to learn. You've blessed me with insights both in the things of religion and the things of labor. But Lord, I need change. I'll always need change, I know, but sooner would surely be better. Do I wish to abandon myself? Only to You. There's abandonment and then there's abandonment. I surely wish to be free and bold in my love for You, but I don't wish to become so free that I no longer test what's being given to me. That would go against Your own counsel. Father, lead us. Lead us in balance, help us to be just as free as You desire, and no more so. Especially as we serve You in Your house, Lord. Keep us out of our flesh, direct us as You see fit, and make us to be sure of Your leading. Let our lives show us and those around us the truth, and let the truth show that we are Yours indeed. Lord, hear my prayer.