New Thoughts
Going back to my question of falling away: I have to admit that it would seem from this that there is the possibility of a true Christian falling away completely. The deceivers went out from within the church. It's possible that they were never true, but it's equally possible that they were. Those whom they deceived may have been Christ's in earnest, might still have thought themselves so as they left. But I cannot convince myself that such as embraced the Gnostic error, and denied the Christ His Christhood would find themselves welcomed into His courts even with some minimal crown. I cannot believe that such as have actively opposed Him to the end will be joining Him in glory. That's just not how it reads. Why all the warnings if we get in anyway? The stakes are higher than we like to believe.
"When error abounds in the world, our first duty is not to attack it..., it is to look to the citadel of our own souls, and see that all is well guarded there." This is something we must bear in mind. God doesn't send us into the battle unequipped, but we seem all to willing to do so ourselves! Of course, there's a corollary. Once we have assured ourselves that our own defenses our strong, that our God is with us, then it is our duty to go forth in His service; to bring down the forces of error by the power of His truth. When we're not jumping out ahead of Him, there's that strong pull to stay in the fort where it's safe. God help us! Most of us have never seen a battle, and know little of the ways of warfare, spiritual or otherwise. It strikes me that the rules of engagement are much the same in many ways. As our commander, I pray You would help us to hear Your orders, and act on them with alacrity. Whether those orders be to stand or to attack, whether they be to guard the fort, or go forth in victory. Your word abounds with examples of the victorious successes that come of obedience to Your command, as well as the ignominious defeats that come of going out without You. Help us to obey.
"Each vessel of glory hanging on Jesus shall be full. But the larger the vessel, the greater will be its capacity for heavenly bliss." This just blew me away. Especially with the attachment from Isaiah. I'd just never seen that before. Each to his own capacity. Part of what we ought to be about here is increasing our capacity. That's the purpose of works, to exercise and increase our ability, our stamina. What an awesome God! It's as though He's put us here in a spiritual gymnasium, so that when the time comes, and we're called back home, we'll be in the best possible shape to receive Him and behold Him. He's prepared good works in advance for us to do, that He may reward us the more when we come home to Him! That's just so cool! Oh, to be a Daddy like You, God. What an example You are - quietly providing the means for Your child to succeed fully! Oh, God. At times like this very moment - when it all seems like we're getting it so wrong, bringing pain without gain, help me. If it's all wrong, then correct me, and give me the strength to correct us all. If it's me that's wrong, then break me and change me, Lord, that I can help the situation instead of simply seething over it. I feel surrounded by anger, some mine, some others. It all just gets into this hideous feedback loop. How do I break it rather than join it, God? How can I be the peacemaker and the disciplinarian? HELP!