New Thoughts
How essential it is to have a solid knowledge of the true doctrine of the Gospel! Without it, we can have no means of verifying any other teaching we hear. And experience shows that without the Holy Spirit to guide us, we can't even understand that Gospel, it's real meaning won't be clear to us. Oh, God! I thank You that You have raised up in me a desire to understand, a desire to learn from Yourself, and from those who have understood You so well. I thank You that where opinions have confused the truth, coming down on every side of it, You reveal the true answers. I thank You for the questions that remain unanswered for now, for I know that when the time is right, You will make my answers clear. I thank You for all the new insights You have been giving to me throughout these times together - insights into both Your character, and my own. I continue to pray that You would make those two characters more alike than they presently are, for it pains me more each day to realize how vastly I differ from Your plan. Lord, You've given me a difficult assignment in raising this family. My understanding is still so incomplete, and yet it is my duty to guard them from error. How, Lord? I can only pray that You would keep me from anger when those You have appointed me to protect question that very protection. I can only pray that You give me the wisdom and humility to fill that office as You desire. Lord, I've seen myself, and found me wanting. I don't take well to being questioned, do I? Even requests for explanation hit me like an accusation of wrong. Why, God? Am I so insecure? I see it is so. Help me to find my security in You, knowing that Your wisdom is my guide in all things. Help me to grasp hold of that concept of leaning not on my own understanding. Help me to recognize whether it's Your truth or my own concoction that I'm struggling to uphold, for my eyes deceive me too often. All that I am is in Your hands, Lord. You know that, and I know that. But too often, I forget it. Help my memory where it truly matters. I don't want to be found getting out ahead of You, nor do I want to lag behind. I want to be where You have placed me. I do. Why, then, do I find it so hard to do? The flesh is so weak, Lord, so weak. Strengthen me to Your will.