New Thoughts (4/3/01)
Barnes reminds us that when our deceitful heart leads us to judge another, we should ever take the opportunity to truthfully examine ourselves. How true. I looked at the issue of permanence not that far back in this study, and was reminded that there remain those who will have heard the truth, seen the light, tasted the wisdom revealed by the Holy Spirit, and yet will turn away. I looked further (outside of that study), and saw that indeed, God is so fully involved in the redemption of His chosen that no possibility can be thought of that would cause His will to fail. There is a place for confidence, there is sufficient reason to believe that true election is certain election. The question lies in whether we've seen the truth about ourselves. Scripture provides us with any number of tests by which we are to know ourselves truly called. When I was studying 1 John, I found that letter to be full of such quizzes for the faithful. But the heart is deceitful above all others. We are amazingly blind when we turn our gaze upon ourselves, rarely seeing the true condition we are in. I begin to think that perhaps this noted habit of ours, of seeing so clearly in others the conditions we need most to correct in ourselves, is the Holy Spirit's way of breaking through our self-deception. We all know it happens. We often know when it happens, if not recognizing the case shortly thereafter. This ought to be for us a call to prayer, a call to repentance the moment we recognize the situation.
Father God, twice in recent study You have reminded me of what my reactions ought to be to daily situations. You have reminded me that my reaction to hearing Your name abused ought to be to declare Your great worth. Now, you remind me that my reaction to recognizing faults in those around me ought to be a self-check, and, should I test positive, an immediate repentance. Oh, but Lord, how hard is true repentance! How easy it is to mouth an apology and move on, instantly forgetting the whole event. Is this not exactly what I find of such great concern in my own child? That here apologies are empty and simply attempt to avoid or get out of the present trouble without true change? But how different am I in Your presence, my God? Don't I find myself in the same situation? Oops. Did I do that again? Gosh, I'm sorry. But I can't help it! My excuses are no better, are they? Even if it be true that I can't help myself, do I truly avail myself of the help that I find in You? Oh, Jesus! How I long for freedom from the ways of this flesh, and yet how they entice me! I cannot deny the truth of that enticement, yet neither can I deny the shame that comes in on its heels, when I abandon myself. Only You, Lord, are able to work such a change in me, and I pray that You would do so. I pray that You would so strengthen my spirit within me, that I would know Your presence beside me in every situation. Knowing You are there, Lord, for indeed You are. Knowing You are standing with me, waiting only for the call to aid, desiring only that I would call for Your help, instead of pretending You've wandered off and I'm on my own, left to fail. Lord, let the light of Your truth so fill me this day! I've seen the oughts, let them become the wills in me today, by Your very present aid in times of trial. And, sweet Lord, help me to be as compassionate and merciful with my child as You are with Yours.