New Thoughts (3/18/02-3/21/01)
When first I was looking back through this passage, I see that the following question was heavy on my mind: "What is it that God wants to accomplish in me?" I dwelt on it long and hard at that time, as several new responsibilities were coming upon me. In the end, the conclusion of my musings was captured in: "Do all that You would do in and through me, oh Father, and let me be found faithful to comply to Your will." Well, a year and more has passed since that point. I have learned to deal with the roles that were new then, and now, there comes a fresh crop of new and nebulous matters to be concerned with, if I so choose.
However, looking at the things I have pulled out to think about in this pass, I see a new answer to my question. I see that I have vastly overcomplicated God's answer. I think that in many ways, these two verses sum up what it is God wants to accomplish in me. (Pr 3:7 - Don't think yourself wise, but fear the LORD, and turn from evil. Is 27:9 - When all idols are crushed and removed, the price of Jacob's sin will be paid and he will be forgiven.) That's it. That's what He's after. He's not all that concerned with what I may be doing in this ministry or that. He's not all that concerned with what position I may attain to at work. His concerns are far simpler than that: turn from evil, crush every idol in your life. That's all. Even above the work of evangelism stands this task. As Scripture says, what profit is it to man if he gain the whole world, but loses his own soul? What is my eternal state if I have saved many by my words, yet lost my own soul by my actions?
Lord, I don't ask, at this point, that You reveal those idols to me, for there's enough of them to choose from already. I do, however, ask for the strength to take that step of crushing them, of being done with them for good and all. There are those I think I've mastered, only to find that they've simply gone into hiding for a time, to rear up again. There are those attitudes which have no place in a son of God, yet which seem to be so much a part of me. They ought not to be. Help me, oh my Lord, to truly do away with them. Remake me, my Father, in an image more fitting for Your family. Create in me a heart that will inspire jealousy in my family and friends, a healthy jealousy for a more intimate walk with You.
There has been much talk around church circles these days of how this is the time of Elijah, that is the Joshua generation, this is the Moses generation, and so on. I find another generation in view during this study, though, and I find that it's a generation I'd like to be part of: The Jacob generation. Look how they are described. (Ps 24:6 - This is the Jacob generation: those who so seek the LORD.) How do they seek the LORD? What is it that identifies them as God-seekers? It is character, a character that God declares of them in the same passage. (Ps 24:4 - He has clean hands, a pure heart, a soul that knows no falsehood, and a tongue that swears to no lie.) And how does God react to such a generation? (Ps 24:5- That one shall receive the LORD's blessing, and the LORD's righteousness. The LORD shall be the God of his salvation.) Who would not want to be a part of that generation! To know the LORD's righteousness, the LORD's blessing! Yet the price tag is steep. Purity in all aspects of life is a requirement. Indeed, how can we seek the LORD, and still seek after sin? Such things ought not to be.
Lord, too often I've not been seeking You. Too often I've fooled myself into thinking I was, but have been settling for a drugged conscience, a false hope. I want the real thing, my God. I want change. I want this life I live to reflect Your presence in every moment, and I know it doesn't. I want to stand strong in You, even in my weakness. I want to be part of that Jacob generation, to seek You as I ought, to live as I ought, to serve as I ought. Come, Holy Spirit, and help me to change, build in me the image of Christ, that He may be manifest in all I do.
But, oh, how thankful I am that Your love for me is not conditioned upon this. Whom You love, You love to the end. Indeed, Your gifts, Your calling are irrevocable, Your promises are yes, and amen. They are more certain than the sunrise! Lord, though my heart be troubled to see who I am, yet my hope is strong, knowing what I must become, for You love me, You have called me Your own. You have called me! That's just so amazing! To think that You would choose such as I, who so long sought any other god but You, who so long have refused to give You all, but have carefully partitioned the pieces I'll let You into. As though I can resist Your love, Your desire! Even now, I hear my thoughts saying, "all to You," yet at the same time, I hear that muttered, "except this." I am a house divided, as is, I suspect, every man. Lord, end the division, strengthen my spirit within me, that the muttered exceptions will be drowned out by the shout of devotion!
A number of things stood out to me in this study in regard to the condition of the Jews today. Foremost among these is the fact that their present disobedience is as much a matter of God's providence as our salvation. We tend to want to blame the devil for the 'bad' things, and credit God with the good. However, all too often, the 'bad' is just our viewpoint. Is the unbelief of the Jews bad in God's sight? It brought salvation to the Gentiles. Was that bad? It will eventually lead to the Jews being saved as well, and uniting with the Gentiles in belief. Is that bad? Unbelief is certainly bad. However, God's plans, the things He brings about by our choices, are for good. Remember who it is that Scripture says shut us all up under sin. Satan is not given the credit for that. God is. He did not cause us to sin, nor did He tempt us to sin. He merely arranged circumstances so as to reveal to us what was our true nature and need.
Another thing that's been coming up of late is the restoration efforts ongoing in Israel. Attempts are being made, we are given to understand, to rebuild the Temple, and re-establish all the rites and ceremonies that went with it. Many look at it with great excitement, even in the Church, for they see in it yet another sign that Christ's coming is soon. But this cannot be the restoration He speaks of! Is God likely to re-establish the shadow when the true has come? Is this any kind of revival among His people? This is not a returning of the Jews to true faith, but a return to the shadows of religion. Further, we are told that their restoration will come about through being made jealous by us. Are we helping to re-establish the earthly Temple? Not that I can see. Nor can I see any Biblical mandate that we ought to.
Our mandate is to make them jealous by our position as the Bride. We are not in competition for our Husband, for we understand that He can properly love both Jew and Gentile as He ought. Yet, they have always known themselves exclusive partners to God, and the idea of a significant other should provoke them to jealousy - especially as they see Him returning the love we show Him. Our mandate is to work so as to draw them back to the God they have so long abandoned. This is, as Barnes points out, no more than to repay them in part for all they have done in preserving His worship, and in preparing the way for Messiah. Now it's our turn to do the same.
One more thing, however, we must hold clear. The time of the Jewish fulfillment remains future. The fullness of time for the Gentiles remains future. The details of these things God has not deigned to make clear, and to speculate upon them is beyond foolhardy. How is it not rebellion against God to require of Him that He reveal to us what He has chosen not to? Who are we, to insist that He tell us clearly of those things He has already said are not ours to know? What is this, but humanism in religious garb? The apostles asked for details. The Father said no. How would we deal with a child that kept asking, when he'd already had the answer? We should remember that we are children of God, and He is our Father.
There was a very eloquent description, in Adam Clarke's comments, of our common situation, the plight common to every man that comes to live on earth. We are, he writes, whether Jew or Gentile, guilty in God's sight, and chained by our own unbelief to await the sentence. There is no difference, no distinction to set either Jew or Gentile apart. It is the same offense that has brought each one into this prison of our own making. Chained by unbelief in a prison of unbelief, we await our own just execution. But God, for no merit found in us, but solely due to His own great compassion, has issued a pardon! The doors of our jail of unbelief have been opened, and the chains have dropped from our limbs. However, many, like Peter in the night of his imprisonment, haven't yet awakened to what God has done. Free to depart their deathwatch, the continue to sit and wait. What a sad thought.
We have all come to God in an equally poor state. The Gospel has come to us all on equal terms. The Gentiles did not receive the Gospel because of their faith. Their faith was of no greater merit than the works of the Jews. For faith to somehow deserve the Gospel would be to make faith a work in itself, and this cannot be. No. Faith, like the Gospel that came to us, comes as a gift of God, an expression of His compassion towards us. That is our sole hope of salvation, the singular path to life that God offers: His mercy, and His grace - a total setting aside of our own agendas and achievements.
That hope we cling to is anchored in the office of Jesus Christ, our Reconciler. His office is our reconciliation to God. As Calvin tells us, in that office, His presence coming to us, a faithless people, cannot but bring change. How can we possibly claim to hold on to Him, to cling to the hope of salvation, and yet continue as we were? We, who have been pardoned from our death sentence, will we seek a return to the cell? We, who understand that we are not, in this gift of life, getting what we deserve, but something infinitely more wonderful and utterly opposite, will we not prepare ourselves for this change of life?
Oh, Father! In so many ways, I convict myself by my own writings, here. I have been guilty of failing to value what You have done. I have been attempting to keep far too much of my life as it was, to live in some sort of spiritual schizophrenia. It's time to be done with that! But it's not in me to make the break. It needs Your hand. It needs Your Spirit to bring the change in me, that I might be willing to put the parts of my life back into a whole picture of You. Even as I type this, my Lord, I can feel the flesh rebelling. What shall I do, but to lean wholly upon You, my Savior, my Healer! I need You. I need Your life in me, that I might live in You and for You. Will You come? Will You bring the healing I truly need? The healing of this wounded spirit? Come, Lord. Come.